Austin, Texas

When you have the opportunity to selfishly put yourself first, its incredible what immediately comes to mind.

I have been single for just under 2 1/2 months now, and honestly one of the first things I decided in that initial week of this new chapter was deciding to move out of Northern, VA. While I have lived here my entire life and absolutely love this city, I’m ready for a new place to learn, explore and fall in love with. While visiting Austin last month I had the opportunity to walk through apartments, and truly fall in love with the city that I would be spending so much time in. I honestly have never been so excited about what is coming. But, knowing whats coming, with so few friends knowing makes this summer even better. I have never been good at living in the moment, and this move in actually teaching me that. To enjoy every moment. Say yes to every opportunity that is brought to me, and really love the time I had left in this incredible city.

I never thought I would leave this area. When my parents moved, Andrew and I had decided we would purchase a house in the Northern, VA area. After visiting Austin at Christmas I realized that I loved the city life, and wanted to be able to experience that, but Andrew wanted to stay in the suburbs. So we agreed to the suburbs. I also had suggested to Andrew that we move south closer to my family, but he never wanted to leave this area, so we were going to stay. When I’m honest with myself, I know I’ve wanted to leave for a while. And that I only truly stayed in this area after my parents moved because of Andrew. My mom asked me at least 100 times to come with them and start over. I never thought I would.

I’m working out details with my work now, and while I confidently believed that it would work out, now I’m not as confident. But I’m not scared or worried at all. For someone that is a total type A personality, I’m generally in a panic when something doesn’t go according to the plan. I think I actually understand the idea of ‘giving it all to God’. He is going to take care of me. And whether my job lets me work remote or not, I’ll figure something out when i get there. Maybe I focus on grad school for a semester, and work at Lululemon in Austin. And maybe teach for a yoga studio. And maybe a restaurant or bar as well. Well obviously that is not the ideal plan for a 24 year old with a bachelor’s degree, 2 years experience, 1 year to go in my Masters and student loans, it might actually make me the happiest. I feel like when I have been so worried about the money, and figuring every out I have considered less what makes me happy. What will provide me the best quality of life. And maybe its not a 9-5 job. At this point, I don’t know. But I have a lot of ideas, so I guess well see.

I sit down with my director on Tuesday morning to discuss my role in Austin, and how my pay, and expectations will change. Depending on how that goes, I may not need a new job. But I also might need something when I get to Austin, or even before then. Who knows? But either way, my lease in Northern, VA doesn’t end until Sept 1, and I don’t think I want to spend my birthday in a place where I know no one. So no matter what I will be in DC until after my birthday.

I’m giving it to God. Literally all of it, and believing that He has a plan for Bentley and I.

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Bentley Bear – life as a new fur mom

This experience so far has been a world-wind of new responsibilities. I knew it would be a challenge, like anything else that dramatically changes your life, but it has been so much fun too.

Bentley is the most adorable, 10 week old golden doodle, and he is growing up faster than I can believe it. He has the smarts of a poodle, and the loyalty of a golden retriever. He has already learned to sit down when I’m putting his food in his bowl, he’s completely crate trained and he can go up and down the stairs. But he also has learned that if he just barks, which he never does, that he will be able to get on the couch. I haven’t yet been this frustrated with him, but he is learning how to play me. Tonight, I let him bark. It was loud, and annoying, and I felt terrible for the neighbors (even though it was only 7pm). But he needs to learn that barking doesn’t get him his way. That getting on the couch is a privilege, but I don’t know how to get that across to a 10 week old puppy.

Potty training has also been quite a task. I knew it would be hard, but in my mind it might be a few week task. I had no idea how tough it would actually be, but this is probably the best practice I can get to prepare me for a baby. The great news about Bentley, is that even though we are still working through potty training, he doesn’t go potty in the crate at all. He is finally able to sleep through the night, from about 10:30-7am, which is amazing! About the first week in a half we were getting up in the middle of the night, but we finally are able to get through an entire “school night” without going outside in the middle of the night.

Even through some things have been a struggle, he has made so many things in my life better and bad days are immediately better when I see him. I can’t wait to see what the next week weeks and months bring for us!