The opposite of your expectations

Do you ever prepare yourself for how a situation is going to play out, and then it happen the exact opposite?

I’ve been dealing with hip pain for a few years now caused by distance running. I’m a half marathon runner and Tough Mudder participant. Injury is common, and almost expected. I’ve been dealing with my pain through a chiropractor over the years, and its been enough to allow me to train less than desired but cross the finish line of every race of signed up for.

I started dating a chiropractor earlier this year and he recommended that I have an MRI done to see what’s actually going on inside, especially since I’m turning 26 in the fall. Should I need anything serious, id rather my parents insurance cover the fees.

The results of my MRI Anthrogram caused my chiropractor to refer me to an orthopedic surgeon. My expectation for the appointment was that I was going to leave with answers, or a game plan for moving forward. I assumed that physical therapy would be recommended once or twice a week and that would be it. Unfortunately, I left with more questions, and no new answers. I’ve now been referred to a second orthopedic surgeon in the Austin area, and this one is the best in his field for my cases.

The words ‘rare’ and ‘never in my 43 years of experience’ always begins a downhill conversation. All of my scans combined show adhesive capsulitis, also known as frozen shoulder, but mine is in my hip. The orthopedic surgeon I saw today has never seen a case like this before.

Rather than panicking and assuming the worst, which is the fight or flight happening in my head right now, I’m choosing to breathe and not think about it. At this point, surgery could certainly be in my future, but I wont know until I see this next doctor. Until then, I just have to wait.


Do not fear

The Bible tells us 365 times to not fear, so God has got to be pretty serious about that, but in moments of weakness we tend to forget how persistent he is.

I’m 25 years old with hip pain that’s preparing me to need a hip replacement much earlier than normal. I’m headed into my second hip MRI this afternoon, but this one is also an anthrogram. I have to be honest, I don’t remember the last time I was this nervous. They will be inserting multiple needles into my hip to numb the area before inserting a large needle full of dye. This dye is supposed to help visualize what’s going on in my hip, whether it’s a tear or a highly inflamed region. If its torn, surgery will be required to repair the torn area. If it’s not torn, we continue working on improving mobility, stretching, weight lifting, and will continue avoiding cardio until further notice.

I’ve been anxious researching the pain to be expected all day, with sweaty palms and an anxious tummy. I keep reminding myself how direct and repetitive God is about fear.

Psalm 56: 3-4 “3 When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. 4 In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid.”

John 14:27 “27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”

Psalm 118:6 “6 The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?”

Joshua 1:9 “9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

If you have a free second in your morning today, please send a prayer up for me. Pray for a lower level of anxiety and the best results we can ask for, which is no tear.

Have a blessed day!

With all my love,