My Test is my Testimony

A testimony is an awesome way to share how Christ has gotten you to where you are in your life. I had the opportunity tonight to share mine with a girlfriend and thought it would be worth writing down.

I was raised by Christian parents who had my brother and I in church on Sunday mornings, Sunday evenings, Wednesday evenings and actively involved in youth group on the weekends. I was raised knowing that this was an essential part of my life and my future. When I got to high school, I made the boyfriend in my life my god and without realizing it, in college they were the idol that ran my whole world. While I was in college, I found that my life was pretty good and on the right track just how it was going, so I continued to put the Lord on the back burner and live my life the way I wanted to.

When I wasn’t with my boyfriend, or getting drunk with my sorority sisters, I felt lost. I had the dream of getting into nursing school, and after 3 years of trying my hardest, I had to let the dream go and find another focus that would get my out of college with a degree without accruing too much extra unexpected student loans. I graduated one semester later than planned, with a wonderful man in my life. I went to Africa to teach English for 6 weeks, found a job as soon as I got home and have been in IT sales since.

Slowly after returning stateside, the Lord started working on me. I started seeing things I had always ignored in a different light. Like that my boyfriend wasn’t a Christian and wouldn’t go to church with me on the rare occasions that I attended. This started to slowly eat at me, and other things came into focus. I have always wanted a husband and a family. This boyfriend and I had always discussed the possibilities of a family, and had always been on the same page, but now in this new light when it was mentioned, we didn’t seem to even be speaking the same language. Ultimately, less then 2 years later, I ended the relationship because we were not on the same page when it came to families or faith. These were 2 things that I was never going to be willing to give up. I was going to marry a Christian man who would be a strong leader, and would share my desire to have a family and babies.

8 days later I booked my moving truck to get me to my fresh start in Austin, TX. God has been working in my life every day since, and I have been working hard to not ignore Him. When I look at all of the things that He kept me from, and all the amazing things that have occurred because of His hand on my life, there is no one that deserves the credit more than Him. God has opened doors and closed windows to give me the life that I have never dreamed of. He put me into a house that I could barely afford by giving me the loan officer that fought for me and got incredibly creative every step of the way. He has given me a women’s Bible Study that keep me focused on my goals and are incredible examples of the Christian woman that I strive to be every day. He has blessed me with a family that has loved me through all of the messes that I’ve learned to get through. He reminds me of the things that I will not give up and keeps me focused on the plan that He has laid out for me. He answers my prayers and is with me every step of the way.

I only have this life because God has provided every piece of it to me. He deservers every ounce of recognition and praise because I am only where I am because of Him. He leads me despite all of my poor choices, and mistakes, not in spite of them. God is so good every single day and the future will be full of blessings and challenges that continue to allow me to grow and further pursue Him.

Your test will become your testimony and your mess your message. ❤

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Annoyed by the challenge

I took by far the most challenging yoga class I’ve ever been in yesterday morning. It’s not like I knew I was going in for a Level 3, professionals only yoga class. It was a 45-minute lunch break flow. It’s the same class I take every day. BUT what I like about this studio is that every teacher teaches what they want, rather than a scheduled sequence. So some days are more challenging than others.

In yesterday’s class, I found myself annoyed by how difficult it was. Annoyed that it was challenging. That my limbs were shaking and my shoulders were sore. Looking in the mirror I noticed how red and exhausted my face looked from holding my breath in, rather than allowing the breath to move to the most knotted parts of my body.

I practice yoga in a studio for this feeling. For the ability to be pushed past my limits, even when I’m annoyed  by it. Annoyance is an emotion and I’ve come to find that these emotions showing up on my mat are a direct reflection of an emotion I feel out in the world.

Try and stay in the poses that make you the most annoyed. The ones that make your muscles sore and cause you to shake. Acknowledge the feelings and emotions that come up. Think about why they are appearing and let them go. Move past them and chose leave those thoughts and feelings in the space you’re in.

Inhale what you need and exhale what no longer serves you.

Namaste!

Kristi ❤

The next BIG adventure

I honestly can’t believe that this week is here.

My last week in the office with all of my coworkers. My last 3 days with my best friends. The people who have been by my side through everything that’s happened the majority of my life. The people who have supported every insane decision I’ve thought to pursue and every relationship that’s left me broken hearted. These are the people that have made me who I am. Who have believed in me when I didn’t and have allowed me to develop and evolve into my truest version of myself. I’m forever grateful for those who have loved and supported me through all of it. And I don’t know if I ever would have found the woman that I am now if it wasn’t for the past 10 months that I’ve had.

2015 has been the most influential year for me and my personal development. Learning more about what I want, and what I see for myself and my future. Acknowledging and accepting that I deserve better than a comfortable life. No one deserves a comfortable life. And that’s not a life I want for myself. I don’t want to be comfortable. I want to live a big and insane life because I know that I deserve that, and want that for myself. The magic only happens when you leave your comfort zone. Why limit myself to what I’m capable of? Why limit God to what He’s capable of?

I have a 3 day, 22 hour and 1,464 mile drive ahead of me, just me and Bentley. Driving through Virginia, North Carolina, Tennessee, Arkansas and Texas, and were doing it alone. After the summer I’ve had, truly the last 7 months, I can’t wait to have some time to deflate. This summer has been the most incredible to date. I have never felt more empowered, strong, independent and loved. And I’m incredibly blessed that I’ve had enough energy to keep up with everything I’ve wanted to do and all of the memories that I’ve been able to create.

I have 3 days left in DC. And they are packed with time with friends, celebration, booze, laughter, tears, love and happiness. I start saying my goodbyes today, and I’ve never been more ready. Because it’s not truly goodbye, but see you soon.

Bentley Bear – life as a new fur mom

This experience so far has been a world-wind of new responsibilities. I knew it would be a challenge, like anything else that dramatically changes your life, but it has been so much fun too.

Bentley is the most adorable, 10 week old golden doodle, and he is growing up faster than I can believe it. He has the smarts of a poodle, and the loyalty of a golden retriever. He has already learned to sit down when I’m putting his food in his bowl, he’s completely crate trained and he can go up and down the stairs. But he also has learned that if he just barks, which he never does, that he will be able to get on the couch. I haven’t yet been this frustrated with him, but he is learning how to play me. Tonight, I let him bark. It was loud, and annoying, and I felt terrible for the neighbors (even though it was only 7pm). But he needs to learn that barking doesn’t get him his way. That getting on the couch is a privilege, but I don’t know how to get that across to a 10 week old puppy.

Potty training has also been quite a task. I knew it would be hard, but in my mind it might be a few week task. I had no idea how tough it would actually be, but this is probably the best practice I can get to prepare me for a baby. The great news about Bentley, is that even though we are still working through potty training, he doesn’t go potty in the crate at all. He is finally able to sleep through the night, from about 10:30-7am, which is amazing! About the first week in a half we were getting up in the middle of the night, but we finally are able to get through an entire “school night” without going outside in the middle of the night.

Even through some things have been a struggle, he has made so many things in my life better and bad days are immediately better when I see him. I can’t wait to see what the next week weeks and months bring for us!