My head is convincing my heart

Have you ever had to convince your heart of something? Something that your head completely agrees with but your heart just can’t get on the same page?

I find myself currently in this mental battle. It doesn’t happen often, maybe once a month, where im having to remind my heart that this is the right thing for me. Not because I’m missing something that is long gone, because I’m not, but because I’m missing what I haven’t yet found. I feel like I’ve spent the entirety of the last four months figuring out who I am, and who the best version of me is, and now that I’m fully the person I always believed I could be, I’m ready to share it with someone. 

I know I’m where I am in this moment because it’s where I need to be. And I’m not dating because I’m moving, and that was a choice I choose to make. So in retrospect, I’m really wishing to win the lottery without actually purchasing a lottery ticket, and I’m aware of that, but I still hope the ticket just lands in my lap. 

Right now, I’m finding comfort in Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” 

To avoid these quiet moments when I allow myself to think too much and get lonely, I’m going to continue writing, reading, training and watching far too much TV. And continuing to love every second of it! If you have any good books, movies or shows, please don’t hesitate to share. I have more than enough quiet time on my hands currently. 


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