My new years resolution this year was to propose to myself. To learn more about me, and what made me happy, and learn more about the relationship I was in at the time. Since he and I are no longer together, it’s officially all about me.
The ring I had ordered for myself finally came in yesterday. A gorgeous 7mm David Yurman with a morganite stone. It’s literally the most beautiful piece of jewelry I have ever owned, and I love it even more because I bought it for myself. Every time I look at it I remember the promise I made to myself.
I proposed to live and love wholeheartedly, do everything I can to make myself happy and follow my dreams, and never settle for anything less.
I gave up so much in my last relationship that now I’m able to actually figure out who I am. I have had so many friends in the last few weeks tell me how different of a person I am now than I was then. I radiate happiness now. But it’s more than that. My skin is clearer, my dark circles have almost disappeared and I’m sleeping better. My stress level is incredibly low compared to before, and I don’t take bullshit from anyone. It blows my mind that not even 8 months ago I was trying to convince someone to marry me. Convince?!? No no. I should never have to convince someone of that.
I love myself more now. I respect who I am, and the dreams that I have for myself. And yes dating is going to suck, but hopefully I have some good stories to share that make it worthwhile. My dream man is out there. And right now, I’m not ready yet for him. I’m shamelessly and selfishly loving where I am in life and all of the adventures that will continue coming my way.
Thank you God for good friends. Those who remind me of how much I’m blessed to have, and how much better I deserve. They never let me go a day without smiling and make me laugh until I pee. Thank you for the people I’m lucky enough to call my tribe. From all walks of life and with years worth of knowledge and advice to pass my way. I am infinitely grateful for these individuals. You know who you are. Thank you! ♥️♥️♥️