Never again

I informed a friend of my recent life changes today and her response, sadly, was “how long were you unhappy?”

I wasn’t unhappy persay. I loved that man so much that I wanted it to work out with everything in my body, but it was never going to. Not without resentment and unhappiness. Realizing that I was never going to be able to convince him to want what I wanted was so hard to finally accept. But it was harder realizing that I loved this man more than I loved myself. That I loved him more than my dreams. 

Never again. Never again will I love a man more than I love myself. My dreams were around well before any of the men in my life were and I will not settle for anything less than what I’ve always dreamed of. To make sure that this happens, I have started thinking of my non-negotiables. These are the things that my future husband will have, and if he doesn’t, we can just be friends. 🙂 

  1. He wants to be a husband. 
  2. He wants a family.
  3. He is a Christian.
  4. He wants to travel and see the world.

For now, that seems like a good enough list. We’ll see what other things I absolutely can’t live without. 🙂


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